Deep breath! It’s so refreshing to write… Today marks exactly my 2 month anniversary in Libya. The 19th of May, 2009. So far, so good! Really, life is pretty great – and I’m glad for that. “Our destiny will always find us”, I said to Donald this morning causing a stunned expression to paralyze the moment. It was funny – I wasn’t sure if he was confused or trapped in an epiphany. “Do you agree?” “Oh, ya…I’m just thinking about what you said and I like it”, said Donald. “But don’t you think you have to craft your own destiny, Marie?” “I believe, when it shows its face, you have to reach out and grab it.” For as long as I can remember…I’ve dreamed…dreamed big and believed I could fly. I’ve always known that I would travel, work internationally and be a part of big change. Never thought I would get married…could never imagine it. So I’ve left that one on the shelf. And I’m ok with that, actually. But, in terms of experience…I just want to keep on going… I never want to stop. And ya, I guess I do think you kind of craft your own destiny – therefore, if that’s the case…might as well craft it to be as exciting and big as you want! And then have faith… believe in God. Show God, that you want it and will reach out and grab it when he throws destiny your way. Or if you don’t believe in God…show this life that you deserve it. That you’ll take advantage of the opportunities that come your way…and I guarantee you, that destiny you craft…will come true!
Ok, enough philosophizing… I’m thinking about my brother this morning. My eldest brother… My dear brother who is on his way to Afghanistan. Goodness, I love him. Now here’s a man that has sooo much life in him. He works for AIG, has a beautiful family and is in the Army doing special ops in various places around the world. I come from a strong military family and I’m very proud of that. I have the strongest, smartest, most amazing father and brothers.
I’m also thinking about this weekend!! This weekend Lindsey and I are headed off to Sicily and Malta. It’s been 4 weeks since I’ve left Libya and I’m soo ready to go… I don’t know if its just about being here, or still living in a hotel or living and working with the same people that makes leaving here so important for maintaining sanity – but whatever the case maybe, it’s important and my sanity index it about up!
4 comments:
I think this mindset is something that comes up from growing up privileged and in the West though Marie. Every time I hear someone talking about how they know life will just work out, or how all you have to do is want something badly enough or that we are all capable of greater things in life it speaks to me of being out of touch with the reality that most people in the world live in.
Most people don't have a choice to do grand things. They get dealt a shitty hand of cards by life and have to do their best to play them. I too believe in free will but only someone in a position of wealth and security can say something like 'that destiny you craft will come true' or 'craft it to be as exciting and big as you want' and actually believe it.
I do not.
Aaron
P.S. Sorry to rain on your parade.
P.P.S Sorry for being direct and possibly a jerk.
Heyyy...noo worries!! And I appreciate your comment! After i posted this, i had the same thought you just mentioned...and i agree to an extent... I do believe that people that have been dealt a shitty hand of cards have dreams and do realize those dreams... some do not...and i agree with that point. But I've also met lots of people who come from a privileged background and not in the West - that dont take up potential opportunities or waste away what they've been given. My personal experience is based on not coming from a privileged background...the odds were surely against me... raised by a single mother...making less that 25k a year - her dieing when i was 21 - and having to put my self through college, etc... Of course I had gov't support through student loans and stuff...and I'm certainly not comparing myself to most people around the world...but I've realized that, whatever I've put my mind to...has come to pass...not without hard work and determination... but some people get soo down with life and for good reason - but circumstances cloud potential and opportunities...and many... miss those opportunities either bc they don believe enough in themselves or it, whatever it is...just doesn't seem possible...
but yes...I am in a position to speak this way...because I have resources...and many times...unfortunately and fortunately...resources lead to more and more...its how we choose to use them and extend them that really matters in the end...
I think...
Thanks so much for your comment...keeps me on my toes..and not so high in the sky!!!
Well said. I agree with your comment.
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